It's Lovely TO MEET YOU

It takes one to know one. It is only because I have had similar experiences to you, that I have the authentic empathy to guide you on your journey.

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My mother left before the age of two.

My father remarried and this new blended family became full of toxicity and abuse.

Starting in 6th grade I was bullied and I lost my voice. A curiosity for life, exploration of creativity and the drive to be anything in life faded away.

At 20, because I had no idea what interested me (no interests or idea of who I was or could become), I joined the Air Force. This is something I always said I would never do, as my father was a Marine and created an environment of fear in my household. I associated this with his job and never wanted that for myself.

In my experience, the military was an extension of high school. People enlist with the same immature mentality and treat each other even worse than they did in school. What the military advertised as accountability was suppressed by being ostracized, receiving further ridicule by co-workers, and fear of retribution. Harassment, assault, disrespect, misogyny, lack of choice and overall denial of self were part of my 20-year career, consistently.

Disorganized attachment style, a weak sense of self, insecurity, self-doubt, mile-high walls, hypervigilance, ruminations, generalized and social, social anxiety, diagnosed irritable bowel syndrome (IBS), and fear of what seemed like everything were what i lived with on a daily basis.

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A few years into my career, in October of 2010, I found out I was pregnant with my son, Jace... THI WAS THE DAY MY WHOLE LIFE CHANGED.

In that moment, I realized it was my duty to give him the best chance I could at a healthy life, which meant that I needed to heal myself.

so i did.

All of my struggles were because I was disconnected from my true self and living a life through the fragmented parts of me that were trying to survive this wild ride. Establishing a solid foundation for myself and standing confidently in who I AM enabled me to dance with the fear I so closely identified with...and completely eliminated my digestive issues without using medication, EVER.

Through healing I realized it is not a task to complete, but a continuous journey and way of life.

Healing was learning to love myself in such an honest, radical way that I now love me just as I show up in every moment. When I am in shame or self-doubt, when I lack kindness and compassion, when I judge others and myself, I've learned to be still and turn inward. I learned to listen to what all the noise is telling me and move in a way that honors what I know to be the deeper truth of it all.

I've been hurt and I want to be loved.

With this understanding, I can now love others because I've learned that loving myself IS loving others.

I am on the mountain, at different levels on different days, but I am on the mountain. There is no need to defend who I AM anymore because

I now know who I AM

Jace is the most precious gift i have ever been given, as he is the awareness and will that motivates me to live in my authenticity every day.

Thank you, my love!

It took about 14 years in total to return to my authenticity because most of it was done on my own, by looking in the mirror and being honest about painful things. I knew I came a long way but there was more that needed to be done and I couldn't do it on my own.

My obstacles ignited a deep curiosity about human behavior. I was drawn to the unseen layers that cause pain, internally within ourselves and outwardly onto others. We put up defenses to protect ourselves from further pain, which actually perpetuates disconnection from our true selves.

The moment I found Psychosynthesis i knew it was the missing piece.

I was formally trained as a Psychosynthesis Life Coach by the Psychospiritual Institute (PSI), which included a team of people who studied directly under Roberto Assagioli as well as their students.

A beautiful integration of the psychological and spiritual, psychosynthesis holds unlimited compassion for the human condition, acknowledges that we are not our limiting beliefs, and teaches that we all individually hold the answers to our own healing. What i love most about this work is that it invites us to accept everything about ourselves, as the answers lie within the struggle.